Moving On

So...   tonight i realized something....STOP LIVING IN THE PAST AND MOVE ON!! 

Seriously though...  we think our mistakes have to be constantly reminding us. You make a mistake and that mistake seems to stalk you constantly and its just so hard to get over :(  I think guys are the worse thing....a mistake gets made and girls think that they will be single forever.  Being stood up...having your heart broken....being cheated on...lied to....guys dont realize that what they say lasts in the mind of girls for forever. And im pretty sure the same goes for guys.

I need to learn though to let go of the past and look towards the future at all time. Life is too short to be negative and stuck in the past.

Thats pretty much all i have today :)

Oh, i discovered a new artist yesterday that i love. His name is Chase Coy. Look him up on youtube and love him as much as i do! :)

Have a wonderful nights rest, everybody!

xoxo<3
K

True Beauty

Happiest girls are the prettiest girls! .... SUCH a true statement!  What is beauty anyways? Whose job is it to say someone or something is or is not beautiful. EVERYONE is beautiful in their own way.  Honestly, i don't care how pretty your face is or how perfectly toned and tanned and whatever your body is.  If you have an awful personality and are not fun to be around, well... in my opinion thats the ugliest anyone can be.  Beauty honestly comes from within.

No one is perfect. No one thinks they're perfect.  People will always look in the mirror and see their insecurities and scrutinize themselves for things that other people complement them for.  It all goes back to the society and media that surrounds us.  Victoria Secret models parade around looking near death they are so thin!  Remember when curves were the sign of feminism and were desired? now, the only thing being desired is a stick thin body that is well tanned. Well, first off, being so thin can cause SERIOUS heath issues. Girls and guys for that matter are starving themselves and binging and physically harming themselves to achieve the desired body.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY? What is wrong with us? Why do we do this ourselves?!

There was this photo that came across my facebook the other day... on the top was a picture of almost unhealthy looking stick thin Victoria Secret models in their skimpy underwear and push up bras.  Underneath was a picture of the Dove Women from their True Beauty campaign, all wearing underwear and bras as well. However, these women have curves on them! They are each BEAUTIFUL women who love their curves and the way they look. THAT is how people need to view themselves. CURVES=GOOD!  These women each looked alive and healthy and utterly beautiful.  

Society needs to reverse its way of thinking back to the fact that curves are beautiful. Just because a woman has curves doesnt mean that the woman is fat or overweight.  Curves are beautiful and women need to embrace the body they have.
Have a wonderful and beautiful day, everyone <3 

xoxo<3

K

Time for a Change

So...last night i was talking to this guy that i like....he sorta snapped me back to reality. My past is not perfect.  Not in the slightest bit. but i need to stop my past from controlling me. Ive been a slave to myself for so long, that i practically dumped it all on him. I was unfair in the least and i basically lost any chance i had with him.  He now pretty much wants nothing to do with me outside of a friendship. That will have to do, i guess. But now its awkward when i see him around.  Its strange though, you find someone who you think will work, but it doesnt work. So basically ive had the worsts biggest reality check and im making changes to help myself recover and overcome my past.  ive been haunted for too long and i need to stop.

Another change in my life that i am making is my attitude. I am tired of hurting and crying and being sad and anxious and basically depressing. When did i become so negative? so pathetic? so weak? I dont care when...it ends NOW.

What  i love about my life:

my parents are not divorced and are happily together.
i am in early college and am not stuck in high school.
i am not in need of anything...meaning, im not starving or in desperate need of clothes
i have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in at night
i have food when im hungry and clothes when im cold
i have a car to use for transportation
i have a credit card which my dad pays for
i have an iphone and a Macbook Pro
i have a closet full of clothes
i have the most amazing friends who are always there for me.
i have a dog named Baxter who always loves me and is an amazing listener

Things I want changed in my life:

i (like every other girl) wish i were prettier and thinner
i want one best friend who has no other best friends and is with me constantly
i want to be smarter and make good grades all the time

Now, i put the things i want changed because i want to show you my thought process this morning. Those negative thoughts are MY fault. And i have the power to change them.

"i (like every other girl) wish i were prettier and thinner"

im not hideous... i like my shoulders alot and i think i have pretty eyes. My curly hair looks really good when i take the time to mess with it and my height isn't too tall or too low. I need to stop expecting to change unless theres something i want to change. all in all, i really do like what i look like.  Also, the sooner i fully accept myself and learn to love my looks, the sooner i can expect other people too as well. 

"i want one best friend who has no other best friends and is with me constantly"

i really dont want this..... MOVIES ARE UNREALISTIC!  having that best friend who you are with every minute of everyday is unrealistic.. plus, im pretty sure id want to kill him/her if i had to be with someone 24/7.  Plus, i have an amazing group of friends who i trust with my life! I am so grateful for them! 

"i want to be smarter and make good grades all the time"

im not gonna say im super smart, cause honestly im not. but im not stupid! Making "B"s and "C"s in college classes at 16/17 years of age is not the end of the world. yes, I study, but you know what, i can sure do a whole lot more to help my grade. I need to study harder and gain confidence in myself. 

Looking back over these three things that i wish were different in my life, ALL REVOLVE AROUND ME! All of these thoughts are so selfish and i need to get my mind off of this mindset. 

So basically, im going to do my best to be POSITIVE from now on!  

To wrap this up.... its up to you to make your life what it will be. Make every day count! 

Have a wonderful day, everyone! :) 

xoxo<3 

K

Boys Oh Boys Oh Boys

Why didn't I believe my mom when she told me boys have cooties? 

She was right. haha. How many teenagers have ever said that?! MY MOM WAS RIGHT!  Well, about this one thing i guess ;) but forreals.... she always warned me not to let boys hurt me. But i am overtrusting. i let people in. then they hurt me. i just don't know why i do this to myself. right when i think i find a guy who may work...BA BOOM! Boy oh Boy was i fooled...i just don't get it. 

On a positive note, i had a delicious spinach and garlic and tomato pizza for dinner! mmm mm mmmm! delicious!  

ENJOY THIS FOLLOWING SONG! : 

Crying On A Suitcase

by Casey James

Boy don’t wait, don’t think, don’t lock the door behind you
Run and jump into your truck, hit the gas, burn some rubber up
Yeah your time’s running out
Do it now

Take a shortcut, take a back road, take the shoulder to the exit
Skip the parking, screw the ticket, hit the curb and leave it sitting
Whatever it takes
You gotta get to that gate

She’s cryin’ on a suitcase
Sittin’ at the airport
Waitin’ on an airplane
Bound to take her out of here
Ooh
They’re gonna call her number
She’ll sit down by the window
The plane’ll leave the runway
And fade into a goodbye sky
You better run while you still got time
She’s cryin’ on a suitcase

Admit it boy you blew it, you really messed it up
You can make excuses if you really want to lose her
It’s all on the line, do or die time
Getting on your knees time

Tell her that you want her, need her, love her, gotta have her
Everything good in your life begins and ends with her
Lose your pride while you can
Come on man be a man

She’s cryin’ on a suitcase
Sittin’ at the airport
Waitin’ on an airplane
Bound to take her out of here
Ooh
They’re gonna call her number
She’ll sit down by the window
The plane’ll leave the runway
And fade into a goodbye sky
You better run while you still got time
She’s cryin’ on a suitcase

She’s cryin’ on a suitcase
Waitin’ on an airplane
Bound to take her out of here

They’re gonna call her number
She’ll sit down by the window
The plane’ll leave the runway
And fade into a goodbye sky
You better run while you still got time
Well you still got time

She’s cryin’ on a suitcase
Waitin’ on an airplane
She’ll fade into a goodbye sky

xoxo<3 

K

Life As We (Sadly) Know It

Why do people expect other people to be perfect? I am so tired of being hurt and used and lied to and led on..... Why can't people be honest? What happened to kindness? To honest love?

When did deceit and lies and pain and imperfections become the "norm" in society? Are we so screwed up that this is common?

Its almost like this...you begin a relationship with someone. You thoroughly are enjoying getting to know them until BOOM!  Things aren't as you thought...no...far from it.

You are now left hurt and alone, feeling alone and isolated. It just sucks. What happened to a perfect society that actually has morals and cares about one another.

I don't know about y'all, but I'm so sick of this society.  Im so sick of the lies. Im so sick of the pain.

Sorry this post isn't too happy... i just had to blow a little steam...

Anywho, i hope all of y'all are enjoying the the cooler weather and changing of the seasons <3

Have a wonderful night! Sweet dreams :)

xoxo<3
K

Busy Busy Busy

I know I haven't written in days..but I've been busy! Study study study!  Paper paper paper!  No life for me! lol.  oh well. tonight, I'm going to a party!! woohooo!

This is gonna be like the first party in like forever.  its at a mexican restaurant that is so good! it'll be fun :)

earlier today, i had to go to the Apple store... ugh. my laptop is being dumb lately.  oh well.

i just want to tell everyone (especially in Florida) to get outside and enjoy the BEAUTIFUL weather!


Have a wonderful day! <3

xoxo<3
K

Animals

So... last night was fun. I studied until 2 am, went to sleep, and was back up and alive at 630 to meet a group of friends at school for a last minute cram sesh. WOO!  I feel energized.. lol

Right now, at this very moment, I am sitting in Starbucks with one of my best friends, Carina. She's playing games on my phone and Im writing to yall...this is our relationship. haha. In 20 minutes, this guy named Christopher is meeting me here to write a history paper on last week's presidential debate. FUN STUFF! 

Let me give you a list of 10 things that Id rather do than write this paper:

1.    Eat inch worms
2.   Arm wrestle a chimpanzee 
3.   Body slam a rhinoceros

4.   Swordfight a swordfish 
5.   Brush a shark's teeth
6.   Marry a hermit crab
7.   Organize a "race your slug" competition
8.   Hug an electric eel
9.   Kiss a porcupine
10. Give a tiger a massage

Not sure why all of those revolve around animals... haha. Maybe i should go to the zoo...  

Well, i better go write my paper! 

Have a wonderful day! <3 

xoxo<3
K

Today's Lesson...

Todays lesson:

DO NOT PROCRASTINATE. EVER. NO MATTER WHAT. 

I don't care what your excuse is. Do not do it.  I procrastinated and now I'm reaping the consequences... For one of my classes, I have an exam tomorrow, extra credit due wednesday, and 2 papers due thursday... FOR ONE CLASS!  I'm beyond freaking out!

Its a quite simple lesson.... but oh so hard to do.

And its such a hard lesson to learn...

If doesn't matter if you are in school or in work or cleaning your house.  Just do things right away and get it done with!  

On a positive note, at least I'm learning the lesson now and not when i can get fired from a job!

Oh well...we shall see how this goes...

Have a wonderful day, ya'll!

xoxo<3
K

Life is full of complicated situations that YOU must learn to deal with.  Life will never be easy but I assure you...someone else always has it worse than you do.  Learn to deal with what you have and push through to make the most of it.

Ever since I was little, I knew I had big things ahead of me. Now, i get skeptical at times. Where am I going? What am i going to do with my life? Am i going to get into the college i want?  There is so much stress and pressure on me right now, I'm losing my mind!

Here's my game plan:
1. Finish Early College and get my AA degree
2. Attend HIGH POINT UNIVERSITY (the college of my dreams up in NC)
3. Graduate with my Masters when I'm 21!
4. Become a middle school English teacher
5. Get married
6. Have babies
7. Stop working and be a mom
8. Live happily ever after!

Not too demanding right? then why must society make it so stressful!? ACTs, SATs, College Apps, not failing my 5 college classes, and anything else that i have to do in life.  but you know what? It will all be worth it in the end.

I know this is my first blog so be gentle. haha. i plan on just blogging on anything that comes to mind that day. Whether its fashion or beauty or health or an issue I'm having.... i just want to be able to share things with anything willing to read! :) I really hope y'all enjoy this!

xoxo<3
K